Today is the first day of Spring Break for me and I want to know where is Spring!!! It has been a very long, cold winter and I am so ready. Spring is not coming fast enough for me this year. Usually by the time my birthday rolls around, I am seeing crocus blooming and the color on the tops of the daffodils. This year, there was no color at all, not even in the crocus for my birthday. I could see the leaves but there was no hint of any color. I was so disappointed.
The week of my birthday was a very stressful week. I was having my first interview for a teaching job this fall. I was not expecting the interview yet because I had not even completed the application. They knew that I was planning on applying so I guess they decided to interview me anyway. It was very nerve-racking because I have not interviewed for a job in almost 30 years. The last interview I had was when I transferred from Clinton Elementary to Farmington Elementary. I was not ready, but I needed to get ready because it was happening whether I was ready or not.
On the Sunday before my birthday, I had the family over for dinner. It was great to see everyone again and spend some time with them. We miss having Travis and Bridget close enough to see but they are in our thoughts often. Tyce and Camden are so fun, we love this stage of grand parenting. Anyway, while the kids were here, I asked if I could get a blessing and Mark did a great job of calming and reassuring me. I know that the power of the priesthood was there as he spoke the words that calmed my nerves and gave me confidence.
During that week, I received several birthday wishes from some dear friends who were so sweet in the wishes to me. I needed to hear their heart-felt expressions and they helped to lift my spirits. I tried to really soak up all the celebrations even though my mind was preoccupied with my job interview. Thanks to all who helped me through a stressful week.
Well in the past two weeks since my birthday and my interview, I have done a lot of self-evaluating. My feelings have been high and low, and everywhere in between. I try to focus on the positive things that are going on and I try not to think too much about the things I can't control. I still don't know what will happen next year with working as a teacher but I try to trust in the Lord to know what is best for me and my family right now. I know my name is still on the list of possible teachers but I also know that there are other names there too. I can't control the decision but it would have nice to know the decision during break so that I could have felt ready to use this time to work on things for next year. I can't make that decision happen so I have to control the things that I do. I am going to try to work on cleaning the house and getting the yard ready for the next season.
So here I am back to the need for Spring to come. Spring always lifts my spirits and makes me happy. I want that to happen soon. I can see small signs of it coming so I guess I should savor, and enjoy the little things. There are lots of crocus in bloom now and I am anxious to get the roses pruned and the flower beds cleaned out so the rest of the flowers have a chance to start growing. If Spring comes slowly then I will have a longer time to enjoy every day of it. Sometimes Spring comes so quickly that we hardly realize it is Spring and suddenly it is way too hot and the Spring flowers are gone. Once again, I am learning to enjoy the everyday moments and not worry about the things I can't control, however I would like to see more sunny days and flowers starting to bloom.
